心情很不好，连续哭了2天。。。
哭完还要赶快找冰敷。。。害怕别人知道。。。
这种感觉真的好难受哦。。。
好想找个人来谈，却找不到合适的对象。。。
憋在心里，感觉即将窒息。。。
他说我根本不懂他，不懂他的难处。。。
我知道他工作那里最近有员工走了，人手非常不足。。。
我知道他很忙，但也不能说忙就把我真的搁在一旁吧。。。
从最原先天天通话，变一星期一次。。。到现在可能是一个月也没一次。。。
从最原先的每星期见两次，变一星期一次，两星期一次。。。到现在的没空就没见。。。
从最原先的不断信息，变一天2/30封，=》一天10封=》一天五封。。。到今天吵架过后的没有半封。。。
人拍拖，我们拍拖。。。为什么别人可以时常见面，即使不见面也会通电话，而我们却连最基本的信息都少至5封。。。。
而且昨晚你还对我说，我不了解你，只有你老板懂你，讲到我根本没体谅过你。。。
如果我没体谅你，我没有尊重你的工作，我也不会把我的底线一而再三的降低。。。
可能你真的不认识以前的那个我吧。。。为了你我已经不再那么幼稚，一点点就提出分手，一点点就发脾气，一点点就冷战等等。。。
现在的我天天都在等待你的信息，每半小时查看电话有没有你的信息，
但等了又等，不到11++你都不会信息过来，
每一回要不是我先信息过去，我想都忙到忘记我了吧。。。
每一回你都告诉我你还在忙，我通常都会叫你迟些再信息，没关系，没关系。。。
其实我是多么的盼望与你信息久一些呢？
每一回朋友们问起我们怎么样时，我都告诉他们我们很少见面，没通电话，一天也不到10封信息时。。。朋友们都很压抑。。。他们好奇的问为什么会这样。。。我都会说你的工作很忙，每天都要工作到深夜一点左右，要配合你的时间才能够见面。。。
有时候他们更会问“你不担心吗？你真的相信他啊？”
我曾经真的怀疑。。。因为我真的不懂他。。。
我也很害怕。。。但我知道，两个人一起必须相信对方。。。
最终也选择[相信]他。。。
但，相信又怎么样。。。他不了解我的感受。。。
他不知道我其实最需要的是他适时的安慰一下我，我就可以当作什么事都没有过。。。
到现在凌晨1点10分。。。他都不信息过来。。。
我真的开始害怕这段我最长的恋情即将结束。。。。
现在真的好痛苦。。。在哭下去。。。真的不是办法。。。。
但我还是哭了。。。
Monday, 5 September 2011
Thursday, 1 September 2011
02-sept-2011
long time didn't update my blog....
tis few days I had to hang out wif my old frens...
very enjoy,very happy....
long time no meet them ald...specially jessy...
long didn't meet her,
as look as pretty then b4 ....
but her style same as b4,
still a something like crazy...hahhaha^^kdkd
whn sunday we go to wakaf ong ong cafe eat korea bbq,
the food is delicious and it was fair price ...
after dinner we go to jessy house...
we take a lot of photo...very close....
i like the feel....
but whn we hang out on wednesday...
we hv to invite susan wif her bf...
they come late...
is all ok....
but,whn i face to her bf...
he hvn smile wif us ....
and make face as he dont like to saw us...
mayb he was not used to meet wif us...
i really dont like tis kind of feel....
but how can i do...he was not my XX
i cant control him....
but next time whn we wan to meet again ,
i will tell susan...
ask her bf smile a little bit...
dont make face as ald angry all of us....
anyway...tis few days always stay at hm is very bored...
but i am very happy tat i can hang out and meet them on tis holidays^^
frens,friendship forever....
keep in touch^^
tis few days I had to hang out wif my old frens...
very enjoy,very happy....
long time no meet them ald...specially jessy...
long didn't meet her,
as look as pretty then b4 ....
but her style same as b4,
still a something like crazy...hahhaha^^kdkd
whn sunday we go to wakaf ong ong cafe eat korea bbq,
the food is delicious and it was fair price ...
after dinner we go to jessy house...
we take a lot of photo...very close....
i like the feel....
but whn we hang out on wednesday...
we hv to invite susan wif her bf...
they come late...
is all ok....
but,whn i face to her bf...
he hvn smile wif us ....
and make face as he dont like to saw us...
mayb he was not used to meet wif us...
i really dont like tis kind of feel....
but how can i do...he was not my XX
i cant control him....
but next time whn we wan to meet again ,
i will tell susan...
ask her bf smile a little bit...
dont make face as ald angry all of us....
anyway...tis few days always stay at hm is very bored...
but i am very happy tat i can hang out and meet them on tis holidays^^
frens,friendship forever....
keep in touch^^
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